Healthcare, "Birthers", Gates, And Race to Educate...

As I sit back today, with a cigarette, a Sailor Jerry's and cream soda(much better than Capt. Morgan's, stronger and has more of a vanilla flavor), and the sounds of Jason Mraz playing in my ears; I am angry, sad, enlightened, confused, and applauding, the turnaround of the day's events. I mean, mostly in politics, since I have taken great strides to have nothing happen in my life. Ahh... (Inhaling on cigarette,) where do I begin?
We'll start with Healthcare.
OMG PEOPLE!!! (and as I am saying this, I really mean Bluedog Democrats and Republicans) HOW COULD YOU NOT WANT A PUBLIC OPTION!!! First off, we don't want this to become a Government run program, but public option DOES NOT MEAN THAT!!! It means WE HAVE THE CHOICE, to either turn to a government run healthcare option that gives us a cap on the premiums, allows pre-existing conditions to be included(like Bipolar disorder), AND gives us a better chance at seeing the best doctors!!! NOT THAT IT'LL BE TOTALLY RUN AND RUN ONLY BY THE GOVERNMENT!!! WAKE UP AND STOP SEEING AS THIS AS A FIGHT!! Instead, see this as a resource, a time when US V. Them is not in play but taken out of the game completely!
Okay, onto the "BIRTHERS"....
*Sigh* Okay I have to dumb down my speech here for a second because I know your ignorance levels are that of a dog's....
1. Obama's STEPGRANDMOTHER LIED!!! She DIDN'T SEE HER GRANDSONS' BIRTH, she later came out and said She'd WANTED To see his birth. But her whole goal was to up the importance of an AFRICAAN being Pres. of the US then to show he wasn't a citizen.
2. "CERTIFICATE OF LIVE BIRTH" in Hawaii is the same as the Certificate of Live Birth as written on my CALIFORNIAN BIRTH CERTIFICATE... it doesn't mean he wasn't born in the U.S. only that it's termed differently.
3. ONLY IF HAWAII WAS A TERRITORY STILL WOULD WE BE REALLY ENTERTAINING THIS IDEA. But since a person born in the territories is STILL considered A U.S. Citizen then there is no worries. Only since my GRANDFATHER has lived there has it been a territory... which is BEFORE OBAMA'S BIRTH!!!
4. GOOGLE HIM!!!! GOOGLE OBAMA And you will SEE his birth certificate!!! HE REALLY IS AN AMERICAN CITIZEN...BORN AND BRED.
5. ONLY A GODDAMN RETARD WITH NO SENSE OF WHAT REALITY IS WOULD REALLY BELIEVE OBAMA IS NOT A CITIZEN...to all those Politicians who said, "I haven't seen evidence for or against his birth...".... LOOK IT UP!!! IT"S PUBLIC RECORD AND NOT A COST REALLY TO VIEW!!!
6. Again, And I have the right to call you morons, do I say that ONLY AN IDIOT WITHOUT AN EDUCATION... I'M TALKING SOME BACKWOODS FUCKING RE-RE-RETARD, WOULDN"T KNOW!!!

Phew! Okay, sorry but I can tolerate a lot but willful ignorance, and close minded conspiracy theorists I don't.

Gates. Oh boy! Where do I begin? Okay how bout this, YOU'RE NOT A TARGET OF RACIAL PROFILING IF YOU'RE WHITE AND TREATED THE SAME WAY( Which I was!!!, Yeah I was arrested for smart mouthing off to a cop!! BUT THEN AGAIN WHO ISN'T!!!) BUT IF YOU'RE BLACK...OH NO!!! YOU'VE BEEN DISCRIMINATED AGAINST. WHEN WILL "ALL" OF THE MINORITIES REALIZE THAT THEY ARE NOW THE MAJORITY AND NO ONE...NOT NO ONE NOT KNOW HOW, CAN TREAT THEM BADLY BECAUSE THEY ARE ABOVE AND BEYOND IN NUMBERS NOW.
YOUR PAST WAS HELL....WELL SO WAS MINE, SO GET OVER IT!!! I was gang raped by a group of black kids, yet I still give each individual the benefit of the doubt, knowing it was five particular teens that raped me, not the whole black race. Stop thinking the world revolves around you cuz you're different. I'm bipolar, you want to lay claim to that bomb??? GET OVER IT!!!

Race to Educate. A GREAT PROGRAM that pushes the school system to do better by raising the education levels and in turn they get better pay, and more government allowance... WAIT A MINUTE!!! OUR OWN NEVADA, and to the West CALIFORNIA WON'T DO THAT??? Well FUCK YOU THEN!!! You don't deserve the money, and May your students do their greatest but you get fucked over in monies.

*Sigh* Again I have said convtroversial stuff, and yes, I do welcome dissent. But if your comment is stupid, or a "Top That" statement, then I will delete you. If you are thought provoking and have truth behind it, then grudgingly, but yes, I will display it.
THank you for listening to MY OPINION. Yes that is what this is, my OPINION. We all got them, and TRUST ME, all of them stink!!!

Turning a New Chapter in my Life...Again...AND SPECTOR WTF YOU THINKING???WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT"S NEVER BEEN DONE BEFORE???

Well you know me, or for the people reading this, you don't but it seemed like a great openerl. Anyways I am not one to put up with someone elses head trips for very long, and I bounce back quick. Poor schmuch didn't know that while we were dating there were eleven other guys vying for my attention. I knew on Friday when he ignored me that things were going South. That night I felt ignored and lost, so I took one of the guys up on his offer to go out on a date. I didn't sleep with him cuz technically I was still with Anthony. But it did cheer me up and make me feel good that at least somebody wanted to be around my company. That I wasn't a leper to him. The date went great but then Anthony pulled his headtrips again and actually tried to blame them on me(see previous blog to understand full story) I was actually blaning myself for them at the time. Like I really was the person tripping out. Til I told the whole story to another guy I knew, and he said that he thought that Anthony was the one acting like the teenage drama queen. So I've ignored his texts, sent him a nasty email, flagged him on OKC, and wrote a scathing journal on OKC about a number of guys who were writing false things about themselves on their profile to allure chicks in then pull the same bullshit on them. And of course I included Anthony's profile. But there have been so many guy's that have lied and all about different shit. One guy said he wanted a long term commitment and even went so far as to say I was the one but when I wouldn't "Put out" he never called me again. Then ther was the guy who put on his profile about how successful he was an owned his own house. Forgot to mention he lived with four other guys all in their early twenties and he's like 31 without a job OR A CAR I might add. We spent a boring day getting on each others nerves and he never calls for like three months and then shows up today asking why I never talk to him anymore. Then there is the psycho stalker from Amsterdam who after talking on email for a week and I realize he lives in another continent I give up talking to him realizing it's never going to work out but he demands I start to say I am HIS DIRTY GIRL...AS IF!! I belong to NO ONE and certainly am not anyone's DIRTY GIRL
Then there is Anthony, Says he is Straight Forward, Honest, And forthright, yet he never talked to me without me talking to him first. Gave vague replies when asked about anything, and became overly defensive when I asked why he didn't respond to any of my texts or calls for two days. Hmmmm, Yeah these are real winning guys I guess.

On a political note... WHAT THE FUCK SPECTOR....Did you fall on your head and forget what peace of reconciliation process you yourself once did to negoiate in peaceful process???
SIGH Mean are stupid for the most part(BUT NOT ALL MEN, PLEASE READ THIS AND KNOW WHO YOU ARE, JUST A LARGE MAJORITY OF THE PLANET ARE IDIOTS AND YOU"LL BE THE ONES TO GET OFFENDED BY THIS STATEMENT!! )

Anxiety, Depression and Apathy...And what about those TEABAGGERS??

It seems that lately I have been struggling more with apathy, anxiety and depression. Apathy to do anything of really substance in my life at the moment, Anxiety about where I am going and what will become of me if I finally manage to accomplish my dream, and depression...well depression just seems to follow the other two. I am hoping that I will conquer these feelings today and end up making something of my book.
For those of you who don't know, I am writing a book. I've been working on it since last year and it seems that this third draft is the one that is going to work. I have an ear to lay most of my work on by the Published Horror writer that has taken an interest in my work. Lately I have only heard praise from him, which troubles me but I did get a lot of constructive advice from him in the beginning to really help me shape my story.
Right now I am really in a tangle with my writing, wanting to keep all the original chapters in the book but having to incorporate new chapters as my book wasn't long enough. This having to write new chapters has forced me to take my book to another direction and ended up creating tangles of twisted plots and mini plots. So now I think I am going to have to pretty much scrap the original plot and redesign the story to fit my new path of thought. I am hoping to get to working on what is now the sixth chapter in my book today. I don't know right now though because I feel the ebbs and flows of depression and anxiety wearing on me. Maybe I just need more caffeine.

Now onto my politics rant for the day, TEABAGGERS. It confuses me as someone commented on one of my other journals that both sides will seek to tax and cut to their overall party. Neither is different from the other in that they have certain departments and income levels they tax and spend the most money for. But that is for another blog altogether. As I've noticed lately there is a growing group of people who are against the taxes that have been helping to stimulate the economy and help the lower classes gain an edge. It seems unfair that those who have the money are too stingy to help those who do not have money, to grow. I admit that the teabaggers strike is neat and cool, especially since we're seeing a revolt akin to the real Tea throwing party of 1700's. The sad thing is, is that in most democratic societies the rich believe it is their DUTY to support growth programs that stimulate help for the under privileged. Here though I see the upper middle class, mortgaged, debted on credit to the max, and have not thought forward to the paying back of those debts. Now they're complaining because they have those things that they decided not to pay cash for, have the ability to pay the debts they've racked up and still manage their finances, but yet they don't want to help those that NEED money the most!
It reminds me of a puzzle I once read long ago.

What do rich people need,
that the poor have tons of?
-NOTHING!!
I don't know I haven't been following the politics movement as much as I did when the Presidential race was on and in the first month of Obama's reign.
As always I look forward to opinions and comments from all sides of the debate as I feel this is the only way to show the entire picture of this seemingly hot topic!

WHO ARE WE TO DENY THE RIGHTS OF MARRIAGE...A Rant on Gays, Lesbians, and Trans...

I will start with the politics that I am viewing in my life around me. One, and mainly is, 'SHOULD GAY MARRIAGE BE LEGAL?' In my opinion yes! Why should we discriminate on someone's choice of partners? Where does it say in the NEW TESTAMENT that gays and lesbian are wrong and shall be condemned to Hell? I remember it quite vividly in the Old Testament as I was raised Lutheran and was a staunch one at that, when I was younger. But even at age fourteen when I thought I was against abortion for most reasons, and believed in creationism, I still never thought that Gays, Lesbians or Trans should ever be denied the right to marry or be allowed to worship under the same roof as I did. This is one of the fundamental arguments I had with my religion at 17 that made my decision to turn to another religion for guidance and support. I went through theology studying all forms of religion, and as a child even in our parochial school, they taught us about most major forms of religion. Only one has ever said that it didn't matter what your sexual orientation was, that was of course Wicca. But they too were so steeped in ritual and preformed beliefs that pushed themselves onto others that I strayed even from that one.
Onto another note, I have met Gays and Lesbians and Trans that said they chose to be the way they were and I say that is their choice. Is it my choice to be a Lesbian? No. But should I deny them their choice, especially in this Country of the FREE??? NO!!! I have also met Gays and Lesbians and Trans, that say they were born this way, that always they had felt a pull to that side of the romantic road. They would tell me of the shame and stigma they felt when trying to deal with society and would pray to be "normal"(Which in my opinion is overrated and can no longer be identified) so that their parents would not look at them with disappointment. Or that they could be free to say who they are in the military without being kicked out. There are many who choose this way but there are just as many who were BORN this way!! Why would God, a vindictive, arrogant and narrowminded God albeit, allow such genetics to be born and bred but say they are Hellbound? No, I don't buy that at all. There is nothing wrong with them, theirs is not a mutation, or some demon sin brought upon their heads from womb. Theirs is simply an alternate view born out of genetics that led them to be this way.
Moving on, I abhore CALIFORNIA'S choiced of Prop. 8, a state I once regarded as open minded and free thinking as the city of Las Vegas. Better even because they were more ecologically minded, health minded, and full of Hollywood Stars that had a foot in the door to opening the world to much better views and lifes.
I cannot understand why a State with the most largely populated Gay and Lesbian city(San Francisco) would be the first to deny such rights to people who are as kind and caring and in most part MORE kind and caring to their partners be denied a basic right. The right to be coupled together as the same as any other couple. MARRIAGE IS NO LONGER A RELIGIOUS RIGHT, it is a sacred pact backed by the government. My parents were married in a civil ceremony in a court of Law. Now I doubt highly that any Gays or Lesbians are asking religions to turn a blind eye to their religious beliefs and allow them to marry in their church, they are simply asking for a title. A title in my mind that makes most people, miserable, hateful, and domineering towards one another in the long run. Why it used to be against religious decree to DIVORCE. Now 50% of all married couples end in divorce. WHY NOT ALLOW ANY DECENT GAY AND LESBIAN THE SAME RIGHT TO MISERY AS ANY OTHER MALE/FEMALE UNION???
Continuing on in my diatribe is the judgement of whether or not Gays and Lesbians should be allowed to have children, adopt children, or be foster parents. The denial of this right or voiced opinions against this right based on the fact that they'll somehow "TURN" the children into "Gays" is WRONG!!! I have not lived in Las Vegas my whole life but I did live here when I was five, before moving back to California. And my mother worked Hellish hours at Caesar's Palace as a bellhop. She had, at first, had a teenage boy watching me and two other children for our hours after school. He introduced us to PORN, POT SMOKING, and OTHER ILLEGAL forms of entertainment by having groups of friends over and participating in these activities while we were supposed to be "napping" in our room. We, of course, snuck down the hallway to peek out into the den and see the fornications on t.v., smell the funny smoke, and listen to horrible jokes that belittled women. Eventually I told my mother about these things. She pulled me from his care, but my NEXT BABYSITTER. Was a Transvestite looking to go through the waiting period to become a woman. She was beautiful and sweet. Treated us like we were her own babies and never said a bad word, subject us to bad television, and never made us nap for hours on end while she did illegal drugs. She was a great babysitter and a great homework helper. When my mother decided to move back to CA. I begged her to take Shiree with us because I loved her so much. But of course, I didn't understand that she had her own life to tend to as well. I've never forgotten that woman nor the care she showed us while we under her care.
THIS NARROWMINDED BIAS OF WHO GAYS, LESBIANS, AND TRANS ARE HAS GOT TO STOP!!! Now is the time to rise up Youth of today, just as we did to elect Obama President, We must also voice our disgust at the older generations for their one sided damnation of people who can be just as wonderful if not even MORE SO then we as so called "righteous Straights". IT IS ARROGANCE, to think for even one second that WE ARE THE ONES TO INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF GOD!!! All Jesus ever asked us to do,(FOR THOSE WHO FOLLOW THE NEW TESTAMENT) was love!! LOVE AND FORGIVE!!!! And after my dealings with those of alternate sexual orientation, I SAY THEY DO THE BEST WORKS OF JESUS!!!
They love each other and forgive us for our stupidity. In return they ask only for acceptance as WORTHY HUMAN BEINGS...IS THIS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR???
I SAY NO!!!!
Phew! Okay so now I have ranted about my beliefs on what I consider to be a hot topic. And I thank you if you have read this. Feel free to leave any kind of comment you want, whether is pro or con my argument I will listen, and post! AMERICA WAS FOUNDED ON THE RIGHTS OF THE FREE TO BE WHO THEY WANT TO BE AND TO DO AS THEY WANT, SO WHO AM I TO DENY YOUR RIGHT TO COMMENT?? I only hope, that some of my rantings were read by someone who once viewed differently and are enlightened by my article.
Thank you.

RUSH LIMBAUGH AND MY TIRADE ON HIM, BTW- DO WE REALLY NEED TO DEFINE OUR SKIN COLOR, AND OTHER MINOR RANTS AND RAVES...

All I have to say is... RUSH LIMBAUGH!!! Okay first of all, I was a stupid child. I used to be a Republican, and I grew up listening to the bullshit spewing from Rush Limbaugh's mouth. I had to. My Stepfather listened to him as he drove to work and I drove to my volunteer job at the VAMC in Prescott Valley. OMG!!! I know I giving away my Valley Girl roots but I just couldn't stand the guy even when I was a KID!!! IN the political News yesterday a commentator said that Rush Limbaugh was only an "Entertainer" and was "Ugly" Now let me clear some things up here. YES!!! Rush Limbaugh is an Entertainer, and ONLY an Entertainer, at most he is a Commetator. HE IS NOT A WORTHY NEWSOURCE FOR WHAT IS GOING ON IN THE POLITICAL WORLD. Anyone who says that, EVEN in ROUNDABOUT TERMS, HOPES THAT THE PRESIDENT WILL FAIL, is not an objective source for the Political news. Now I will here do what great debators often do, which is to recognize and refute, Often times News Anchors, especially Political news anchors interject their news bias, BUT They have on other political officianados, POLITICAL ANALYISTS, BOTH DEMOCRATS AND REPUBLICANS to show both sides. They of course, as they are liberal mostly, attack the Republicans but show at least both sides. BUT RUSH LIMBAUGH IS NO ACCURATE SOURCE OF POLITICAL NEWS NOR OPINION, HE TELLS EXACTLY WHAT HE THINKS AND DOES NOTHING TO SHOW OTHER SIDES NOR ENTERTAINS THE THOUGHTS OF WHAT OTHERS MAY BE THINKING IN AN UNBIASED WAY.
NOW, onto the "Ugly" comment. THEY WERE NOT referring to his looks, although when he gets passionate and he breaks into a sweat, his face turns red, and he spits a little and it's really NOT PRETTY, their comment on his ugliness really referred TO HIS PERSONALITY. HE IS AN UGLY PERSON INSIDE. HE SPEWS HATE, ENGAGES IN ARGUMENTATIVE TACTICS AND REALLY ATTACKS PEOPLE AS A WAY OF DRIVING HIS POINT, so how can he be taken seriously. When I was a child I remember him once saying that he started out a liberal and started this show as a way of breaking through the norm. As sort of an entertainment act, but overtime began to believe what he was talking about then became slowly the man he is today. Really weird to me I later learned through watching the movie 'Private Parts' featuring Howard Stern that he supposedly became the same way. I am not so naive now and believe them both to be full of shit. I believe that Rush Limbaugh was always a narrow minded asshole, regardless of the lines he was crossing and will always be a narrow minded asshole.
As I am writing this I am listening to MSNBC, not saying this channel is any better than any other, But it is at least able to show both sides more accurately then say...FOX NEWS!!! Which I refer to as FOX NOISE who has fired all liberal news anchors and are dictated as to what news stories they can air on their shows. Not to mention that the liberal analysts they have on their news are pantywaists and get just lambaisted by the anchors. Which honestly I think they do on purpose so the anchors can look better then their guests, which is really just sad. But my point is is that the news media, and then in turn the public takes a comment at tongue and cheek and suddenly the whole point of the comment is lost!! WTF People. First of all STOP BEING SO SENSITIVE and SECOND, STOP TAKING THINGS LITERALLY. When did we stop being a society of being able to take things off the cuff or as written figuratively.
WHILE I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION- DON'T USE POLITICALLY CORRECT LANGUAGE...otherwise known as PC it was devised by the Government, said by them to address the sensitivities of the intelligent society divisions. ALL IT DOES IS HAVE A NICE WAY OF FURTHER SEGREGATING AN OVERALL UNIFIED SOCIETY...DO WE CALL OURSELVES CAUCASION AMERICANS, OR GERMAN AMERICANS??? NO!!! WE ARE JUST AMERICANS, SO WHY, PLEASE TELL ME WHY, they have to be called AFRICAN AMERICANS or HAITIAN AMERICANS, OR NATIVE AMERICANS...WE ARE ALL JUST AMERICANS, and last I checked I was born here too, so really I am a Native American too.
STOP DEFINING PEOPLE BY THE COLOR OF THEIR SKIN, CAN'T YOU JUST SAY A GORGEOUS GUY OF ABOUT 5'11" with black hair and creamy brown eyes, and if the person is so stupid that you really have to define the color of their skin, say something like HE WAS A BEAUTIFUL MOCHA, OR CREAMY CHOCOLATE....OR BEAUTIFUL SIENNA, OR JUST SAY, DO YOU REALLY NEED TO KNOW THE COLOR OF HIS/HER SKIN TO DETERMINE THEIR WORTH?!?! BTW- IF YOU NEED TO KNOW MY SKIN COLOR IS A CROSS BETWEEN A LIGHT BRONZE GOLD AND PEACHY CREAM- Try and figure out my race from that!!!