I know that sometimes, I seem a little less rant and rave and seem more telling of my daily life. But that's only because I am still feeling out this blog. I don't know whether I am trying to set my personality on this blog or if I am trying to make it a hodge podge of my life. But that is about to end, I wanted this to be about my rants and raves, and my uphill struggle as a bipolar. I just have nothing to complain about, it seems that my life is in an upswing right now. But as always, my anger has come out and this time seems justified. To all of you who think that Obama is bumbling it as President, take another look. He is in fact catering to our desires. We had asked for less military in Iraq, we have asked for breaks on the middle class, we had asked for a stimulus package. The problem is we're now listening to what the senators wanted and are taking that to heart as what we, the majority, wanted. And when I am saying people, I mostly mean the media, they glorify the positions and stances that the senators are taking on these issues. I say we should sit back and let Obama do what needs to be done, for at least 100 days. If everything isn't starting to go in a direction that promises an uprise in the future, then I say we start to get on his ass.
On another note, I have heard, though not from a terrific source, so I won't sensationalize, but I hear that Obama is up for the Nobel Peace Prize. If so then Whooo-Hooo, that's awesome, if not then I told you my source was not that reliable. Especially since she is a woman starting to go senile. lol
Anyways, that is my daily rant.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Running into my High School Sweetheart, Dating online, and being diagnosed Bipolar...
So things have taken a turn for the bizarre. I have been on the okcupid dating site for about three weeks now. Have met some interesting guys and some really great guys on there. There is one that trully makes me happy, I really like him. We get along great, the romance is there, so is the sexual chemistry. I am just worried that he won't want to settle down with me when I want to. But right now we are both dating others. So it;s no big deal.
Another weird thing has happened to me, my old high school sweetheart has found me online. He emailed me and asked me how things were going, it's weird but everything ended on such a bad note that I was surprised he emailed me. But he apologized to me for how everything turned out. So I told him the same thing. That I was sorry that things turned out the way they did.
It was kind of cathartic. Anyways, he's married now, and fat, really fat, with three kids of his own. Which is nice for him I guess. He's got one son and two daughters. I knew he always wanted a large family so that's cool. I told him I was bipolar and that I was diagnosed at 19. I said that a lot of the problems we had as teenagers were problems I created as a teenager not knowing I had this disorder. That I wasn't willing to take responsibility for my actions at the time and blamed everyone else for things that were really my problem. It was funny though because he called me Bri, a name no one called me since I was a teenager, Out here in Vegas, no one calls me that, they all call me Brianne. So it was funny.
The best thing about though was I was able to lay to rest a problem in my life that had been rolling around in my head for about ten years.
I guess you'll never know what will happen until you just run into the person and talk things out.
Another weird thing has happened to me, my old high school sweetheart has found me online. He emailed me and asked me how things were going, it's weird but everything ended on such a bad note that I was surprised he emailed me. But he apologized to me for how everything turned out. So I told him the same thing. That I was sorry that things turned out the way they did.
It was kind of cathartic. Anyways, he's married now, and fat, really fat, with three kids of his own. Which is nice for him I guess. He's got one son and two daughters. I knew he always wanted a large family so that's cool. I told him I was bipolar and that I was diagnosed at 19. I said that a lot of the problems we had as teenagers were problems I created as a teenager not knowing I had this disorder. That I wasn't willing to take responsibility for my actions at the time and blamed everyone else for things that were really my problem. It was funny though because he called me Bri, a name no one called me since I was a teenager, Out here in Vegas, no one calls me that, they all call me Brianne. So it was funny.
The best thing about though was I was able to lay to rest a problem in my life that had been rolling around in my head for about ten years.
I guess you'll never know what will happen until you just run into the person and talk things out.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
I got 99 problems but a cookie ain't one!...Heavy.com a cool site...
I found this crazy site by accident, and this was posted on there. I think it's hilarious .
This site is one I didn't expect to find but did when I clicked on a link for bloggers to get paid on my writer's site. I haven't much to say but "I got 99 problems and a cookie ain't one!"
For those of you who love Sesame Street, this is not for you but for those of you who think Cookie Monster has something to say more than, "Me Want Cookie" then check this out.
Included up here is a link for the site I got it from.
Hope you enjoy, and let me know if there are other sites I can go to for hilarious videos and links.
From Psyche7929
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Dating online, weird questions asked, and trying to weed out the weirdos...
So, I started a new dating site, it's free and is actually quite good. It does better than eharmony because you still have the ability to go out and look for dates instead of waiting for matches. But it still asks questions and matches you.
But the questions they ask are sometimes a little weird like:
1. Would you consider it offensive if someone was burning the flag?
2. If someone served you a wonderfully prepared meal of human meat, would you eat it?
I wouldn't because I know where mad cow disease comes from...actually eating your own species meat. It started with cows who were being fed the leftover parts of other cows to make them healthier. But it ended up in a disease that as I am sure you know, makes you quite insane. They never figured out what it was til there was a rescue of people who'd been trapped in a remote snowy area. They ate the people who'd not survived to keep themselves alive. But they developed mad cow disease.
As you eat your own genetics, the proteins in your body start to look at your organs and muscle as food, and even devour your brain making you quite insane. Look at the Amazon women types of Figi, long ago they would welcome you, and feed you kava kava a huge downer and hallucinogen.
But there were other weird questions like
3. Would you be in a long term serious three person relationship?
That's a little crazy.
There were others that I couldn't remember but they seemed pretty out there as it went on.
Which makes me ask the question, why are all of these so important?
I mean some of them I understand but others...weird
Wellanyways, I've become quite popular on this site, I guess, and well have been bouncing around between guys trying to figure out which ones are going to be the best fit.
It's a little confusing sometimes to remember who is who.
But I am definitely weeding out the ones I don't want to know.
Phew! I've been trying to work on my book but lately haven't had the chance so it's been kinda crazy trying to find time to myself.
Mostly I've been dying to work on my book, and hope to work on another chapter today.
Well, Bloggers, this is a fairly uneventful one but still about me so...
Later!
But the questions they ask are sometimes a little weird like:
1. Would you consider it offensive if someone was burning the flag?
2. If someone served you a wonderfully prepared meal of human meat, would you eat it?
I wouldn't because I know where mad cow disease comes from...actually eating your own species meat. It started with cows who were being fed the leftover parts of other cows to make them healthier. But it ended up in a disease that as I am sure you know, makes you quite insane. They never figured out what it was til there was a rescue of people who'd been trapped in a remote snowy area. They ate the people who'd not survived to keep themselves alive. But they developed mad cow disease.
As you eat your own genetics, the proteins in your body start to look at your organs and muscle as food, and even devour your brain making you quite insane. Look at the Amazon women types of Figi, long ago they would welcome you, and feed you kava kava a huge downer and hallucinogen.
But there were other weird questions like
3. Would you be in a long term serious three person relationship?
That's a little crazy.
There were others that I couldn't remember but they seemed pretty out there as it went on.
Which makes me ask the question, why are all of these so important?
I mean some of them I understand but others...weird
Wellanyways, I've become quite popular on this site, I guess, and well have been bouncing around between guys trying to figure out which ones are going to be the best fit.
It's a little confusing sometimes to remember who is who.
But I am definitely weeding out the ones I don't want to know.
Phew! I've been trying to work on my book but lately haven't had the chance so it's been kinda crazy trying to find time to myself.
Mostly I've been dying to work on my book, and hope to work on another chapter today.
Well, Bloggers, this is a fairly uneventful one but still about me so...
Later!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Okcupid, fresh meat, and the call of my book...
Just joined a free online dating site, and the messages have been pouring in. Can't believe how many guys suddenly seemed interested in me.
A friend of mine met his now fiance on there so I thought I'd give it a try. So far things are a little hectic. I haven't even gotten a chance to work on my book yet, but that's what I am doing next. I swear by God, that I will AT LEAST get one chapter written today. Maybe two if I feel so inclined but I doubt I'll get the chance seeing as how I am suddenly popular online. It was that way with my writing site too. All these people came out suddenly to read my work. It was kind of neat.
Anyways, I can't think of too much to write about suddenly, all that is on my mind is my book. I must go write!!!
A friend of mine met his now fiance on there so I thought I'd give it a try. So far things are a little hectic. I haven't even gotten a chance to work on my book yet, but that's what I am doing next. I swear by God, that I will AT LEAST get one chapter written today. Maybe two if I feel so inclined but I doubt I'll get the chance seeing as how I am suddenly popular online. It was that way with my writing site too. All these people came out suddenly to read my work. It was kind of neat.
Anyways, I can't think of too much to write about suddenly, all that is on my mind is my book. I must go write!!!
Monday, February 9, 2009
GOD...THIS IS THE MOST PATHETIC POST I'VE EVER DONE....Am I really so horrible?
God what an exhausting day. It just seemed that everyone that I trusted as a friend just no longer wanted to be around me. One of my friends and I used to talk everyday, texting all day, then talking on the phone for an hour everyday. THen all of a sudden it stopped. He said it was because there were things on his mind, but when I asked him to tell me, to explain he got real evasive and then snappy. And then today I mentioned it again, and he said he thought he was coming down with something. But later on I saw him log onto yahoo and then log off within a few minutes. Then twenty minutes later he logged on again, then logged off again. I don't think he actually logged off, I think he went invisible to get away from me. And another person I talked to who was always online now is never online. Am I really that horrible of a person to be around? I know I can be obnoxious, and I am pushy. I try to solve people's problems too, maybe they don't want me to do that. But it's a survival mechanism, I guess. God I am so depressed. I've always forced myself to look inside and recognize my faults. But now I just realized that my faults are just so bad SO OVERWHELMING that People just don't want to be around me!!! I am really an unlikable person. I help people as much as I can, I always try to be nice, and then I get used or they just disappear. Maybe this is why I try to be so helpful...to make up for my lousy personality. I've never hated myself so much as I do right now. GAWD, now I'm pitying myself. AND I HATE PITY!!!
This is why I'm a loner, I have no friends in my real life. I just sit at home all day online. Begging for attention. I'm too depressed to go on...
Friday, February 6, 2009
What A Witchy Way To Go...
Found this wonderful site with a beautiful link that I had to just embed somewhere, So I decided to put it on here.
Nothing else really to report. Oh if you want to know why I am posting this?
Well I grew up in a small town in Northern Arizona and about fifteen miles North of it was a beautiful, and I'm taling GOD'S COUNTRY place, that was full of red rocks, in fact it was infamously named for it's red rocks. But IT was a town called Sedona, and it was full of what the Hicks and Rednecks there called Hippies, Crystal Crunchers, and Tree Huggers. But at first when I started hanging out up there and went to the occult shops I was like everyone else, I just wanted to know about spells. But then I learned of it's religion, and deep respect for the environment and harmony of living with Nature. So I ended up studying for seven years. Became a High Priestess, and did lots of meditation but the only spells I ever did was to relieve stress, promote happiness and to help in the healing process of another if they were ill. So Here is this side that I wanted to share
Nothing else really to report. Oh if you want to know why I am posting this?
Well I grew up in a small town in Northern Arizona and about fifteen miles North of it was a beautiful, and I'm taling GOD'S COUNTRY place, that was full of red rocks, in fact it was infamously named for it's red rocks. But IT was a town called Sedona, and it was full of what the Hicks and Rednecks there called Hippies, Crystal Crunchers, and Tree Huggers. But at first when I started hanging out up there and went to the occult shops I was like everyone else, I just wanted to know about spells. But then I learned of it's religion, and deep respect for the environment and harmony of living with Nature. So I ended up studying for seven years. Became a High Priestess, and did lots of meditation but the only spells I ever did was to relieve stress, promote happiness and to help in the healing process of another if they were ill. So Here is this side that I wanted to share
Raise your hand if you Understand Men...and Is someone telling half-truths about Obama?
Okay, so I'd never thought I'd be talking about this on my blog but here I am bitching about something as stupid as men! Yeah! Me! And not even men in real life, men over the internet. Well here's how it goes. I met a guy who's a model, yeah, a model, yes I know what that sounds like "How can you be sure he's a model? " "Why would he be interested in you?" I know I know all of that. But trust I know for sure that it's really him. So as not to give away details I will only call him D. So D lives in another Country but he's sure we will meet up because he has shoots in my city. My city of sin. Las Vegas. I don't doubt he will come here and we will have a wild time but I am a little well not skeptical but really more like scared. I've just been hurt too many times to accept that he really wants a relationship. But he talks like we'll be able to have a real relationship. Things are really still up in the air at this stage. Anyways, I have two guy friends I talk to on the internet and they chose to take they're bad days out on me, and I warned them that I had a reactive bipolar disorder. ANYTHING you say to me will most likely set me off and that it is unfair for you to put your bad moods unto me! But they just kept dumping. But the weirdest thing happened, instead of getting mad, I cried! ME! Oh yeah it was a great day. (sarcasm, if you didn't notice) And all the while I am just looking for that one, the one that is nice, caring, smart, funny, will be there for me, and is here in my world now. I don't want a guy who is a million miles away one who I'll see in nine months or a year from now. I want a guy that is here right away. And he doesn't have to be hot, I'll settle for luke warm, or tepid. Anyways I am sick of this subject.
I keep hearing people saying that as long as Obama is pushing back this bill of spending to be signed then more democrats are adding in silly Pork Spending like wanting a statue for their hometown!
This person is one I know not to be stupid or ill informed, but he's also Republican and totally against Obama so I am a little uneasy from believing him. In fact I never believe just what anyone else says I learn it on my own. I am just that way. Then there are talks that the prsioners that Obama released prisoners released prisoners from guantamo bay and they are already back with their terrorist cells. Why would he do that? Release prisoners that he new posed a threat for terrorist cells? Alright it just doesn't make any sense. Not that I am calling that person a liar. I just think he's been listening to someone who isn't correct or to a news organization that's illinformed. I mean I watch the new practically all damn day and I haven't heard a single thing like that. Well I can't say anything here bad about someone I guess I'll just have to say that I should not assume. Because we all know what that leads to....
I keep hearing people saying that as long as Obama is pushing back this bill of spending to be signed then more democrats are adding in silly Pork Spending like wanting a statue for their hometown!
This person is one I know not to be stupid or ill informed, but he's also Republican and totally against Obama so I am a little uneasy from believing him. In fact I never believe just what anyone else says I learn it on my own. I am just that way. Then there are talks that the prsioners that Obama released prisoners released prisoners from guantamo bay and they are already back with their terrorist cells. Why would he do that? Release prisoners that he new posed a threat for terrorist cells? Alright it just doesn't make any sense. Not that I am calling that person a liar. I just think he's been listening to someone who isn't correct or to a news organization that's illinformed. I mean I watch the new practically all damn day and I haven't heard a single thing like that. Well I can't say anything here bad about someone I guess I'll just have to say that I should not assume. Because we all know what that leads to....
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Blogoyovich!! AGAIN...CHENEY'S VEILED THREAT, RUPERT MURDOCH THE DEVIL, & IN LOCAL NEWS!!!
Okay So you'd think by now everyone would be sick to death of hearing Blogoyvich's name, if I am even spelling it right. AUGGGGGHHHH!!! But no! He was logged to appear on several t.v. shows yeseterday, including one that I don't watch, David Letterman. Why don't I watch him? Because he makes these jokes that are so stupid and about small details of people's private lives in politics and then gets laughs for it! And I am sitting there like...what's so funny about that?
Well last night he was ragging on Well We'll call him B. for short, anyways David said something and B. said "Well you're enjoying having me on aren't you?" and David replied something to the effect of, "Well for filling up dead air , or a time slot, you're not that bad." Something like that, but OOOOHHHHH lol what a dig!! Like he's worth nothing but to kill time!! And this jackass B. Just keeps talking to anyone who'll listen and really no one wants to hear it! I mean, okay so probably the illegal wire tapping they did in his office won't be allowed in court so there is not a thing that will come of this legally, but his political days are over, seriously. He should just go into hiding and shut his mouth. Save what's left of his dignity. Cause right now, the media is looking for any little thing they can do to make fun of him. He came out of his one day and slipped on some ice, and they made fun of him for it!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? SERIOUSLY!!!
This is why I hate the media sometimes. They take a story that at one time was sensational, and they beat to death with a hammer, just pulverize it into the ground. Til it's nothing like what it once was. And then they give you updates on it like a year of five years or ten years later. To keep poking holes at the wounds. Just to make sure it still hurts.
Okay enough with that, how about Dick Cheney!
He suddenly comes out today with this "Secret information" that he got from a "Source" he's not naming that there would be another attack on the U.S. and he's cautioning US??
IF THAT WERE EVEN REMOTELY TRUE AND HAD SOMETHING TO VIABLY BACK IT UP THEN HE WOULD BE TELLING THE PRESIDENT...NOT FOX NEWS!!!
Fox NOISE is what I call them. The news station owned by the, what I call the REPUBLICAN DEVIL!! RUPERT MURDOCH The man is so Right Winged that when he bought the station he first started sending notes that told reporters that they couldn't say things that made certain politicians look bad or put in a bad light. Coincidentally they were politicians he either supported or liked as a friend. Then it got worse he sent in notes saying what the reporters could report on that day. IF President Bush had made a huge bungle and every other station was reporting on it, RUPERT would send in a story for them to report on about a man in Minnesota that had saved a mother bear and her cubs from a forest fire! And if the liberal reporters dissented from that Ideal....like they were supposed to be allowed to, I mean the news is about following the story and reporting on it, not being told what you could report on. Anyways most reporters are liberal. But the DEVIL would fire them! Soon all the original reporters and then eventually all the staff that had worked at the station was fired and replaced with a group that agreed with RUPERT'S VIEW Now on their news show they DO have alternating views when they choose to have a debate between the conservatives and the liberals but they choose a weak willed liberal that is not quick and getting their point across or someone that is just not good at debate and then they make him look like a ninny on t.v. make them somehow seem right. So to this effect I call Fox News
FOX NOISE!!!!
and that seems a succinct description.
But okay on to local news and then no more rants for today!
The other night on the Hoover Dam
A bus was crossing from Nevada into Arizona, it had just crossed state lines, when for an almost inexplicable reason, it just jackknifed and crashed onto other cars, It was so close to the edge but no one fell over the dam, they just fell out of the windows and were crushed between the cars or the ground and the bus. It was horrible. Many were wounded and five died. Those that were dying tried to talk to the people on the scene trying to help them but apparently they spoke other languages, some Spanish, some Asian. They were pronounced dead on the scene.
They're still trying to figure out how the bus went over. They think that the bus took the curve too hard and lost balance.
Very sad indeed.
Information That Young BIpolars and Uninformed Bipolars should know..
Hey There Bloggers! and Hello To all My BIPOLARS around the world!!
This is especially to you-
Okay, as my friend did earlier on his blog(I will be talking a little bit about what he said some in agreement, some to argue and some to add to that he couldn't), I am not a Doctor of Psychiatry so there is not A LOT I can say about mediaction. HOWEVER, I have a Master's degree in Psychology Specializing in Teenagers and adults with Schizo-affective disorders and some minor others that affect teens. That mostly means Schizophrenia of course, but it also includes bipolar disorder, as well as Social anxiety disorder a few of the phobias that people have and then ADHD and ADD. I also in my years of having to come to grips with my disorder have taken TONS of medications. So I know about alot of medications, The ones I took, the ones I studied up on, and the ones my friends and clients took. If you need to talk about your meds. informally I can help. I have also, access to medication websites and search engines that you may not. I can help you in ways maybe your doctor might think you don't need to know. That's not how I operate.
As for calling it an illness, well do you sneeze? Do you cough? Is it contagiious? Do you take raidation for it? NO! You will not be cured of it, you never caught it from anyone and it's not like it's killing you in anyway like an acutal illness would. IT'S A DISORDER!!! My friend calls it an illness. Well thats' an easy way of saying there's no hope for you. Like saying Alcoholism is and illness and you'll never be cured of your addiction to it. HORSESHIT!!! YOu can go so long with out a drink that you are actually repelled by the smell or thought of alcohol. So why should you still be considered an addict?
I hate that people who've never had the problem are the ones doing the labelling.
And onto my last point, now many of you may in the past, or are at this moment considering going off your meds. You may feel fine and like you don't need them anymore, or you may feel like your meds. make you feel "flat", emotionaless, and unable to create your talented works or art anymore. Wel whatever the reason is, DON'T GO OFF YOUR MEDS.- TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR FIRST!!!! First of all if you suddenly quit your meds. you may have a psychotic break, have a total loss of what reality is, paranoia, hallucinations, thoughts of suicide. And even if you go off them gradually you'll fall right back into your life the way it was once before, and that life was the reason you started taking meds. in the first place. Yeah sure, you'll be able to create again but still, you'll be off kilter, unable to connect correctly with society. Utterly depressed one mintue and wondering if it was all worth it, and so manic that eventually you fly into a rage of anger and breaks things, screaming in people's faces, maybe even going to so far as to hurt someone. So stay on your meds. TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR!!!! And see if you can either get on different meds, or have your levels changed, or if you've just gotten on the meds. be patient. It took me awhile but suddenly I got back the ability to laugh and feel, I write and create art, but I don't go to extremes anymore. I can Control myself now. And it's all because I kept working and it, trying over and over again, til I found the medication that worked for me. In the right dosage. And it's a disorder. It's a chemical imbalance that affects chemical neural synapses.
If you want to know the exact way that bipolar disorder works...I can tell you.
But you have to be open and honest with yourself about the fact that you need help all in all,
it's your call.
Okay,
Rant is finished
This is especially to you-
Okay, as my friend did earlier on his blog(I will be talking a little bit about what he said some in agreement, some to argue and some to add to that he couldn't), I am not a Doctor of Psychiatry so there is not A LOT I can say about mediaction. HOWEVER, I have a Master's degree in Psychology Specializing in Teenagers and adults with Schizo-affective disorders and some minor others that affect teens. That mostly means Schizophrenia of course, but it also includes bipolar disorder, as well as Social anxiety disorder a few of the phobias that people have and then ADHD and ADD. I also in my years of having to come to grips with my disorder have taken TONS of medications. So I know about alot of medications, The ones I took, the ones I studied up on, and the ones my friends and clients took. If you need to talk about your meds. informally I can help. I have also, access to medication websites and search engines that you may not. I can help you in ways maybe your doctor might think you don't need to know. That's not how I operate.
As for calling it an illness, well do you sneeze? Do you cough? Is it contagiious? Do you take raidation for it? NO! You will not be cured of it, you never caught it from anyone and it's not like it's killing you in anyway like an acutal illness would. IT'S A DISORDER!!! My friend calls it an illness. Well thats' an easy way of saying there's no hope for you. Like saying Alcoholism is and illness and you'll never be cured of your addiction to it. HORSESHIT!!! YOu can go so long with out a drink that you are actually repelled by the smell or thought of alcohol. So why should you still be considered an addict?
I hate that people who've never had the problem are the ones doing the labelling.
And onto my last point, now many of you may in the past, or are at this moment considering going off your meds. You may feel fine and like you don't need them anymore, or you may feel like your meds. make you feel "flat", emotionaless, and unable to create your talented works or art anymore. Wel whatever the reason is, DON'T GO OFF YOUR MEDS.- TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR FIRST!!!! First of all if you suddenly quit your meds. you may have a psychotic break, have a total loss of what reality is, paranoia, hallucinations, thoughts of suicide. And even if you go off them gradually you'll fall right back into your life the way it was once before, and that life was the reason you started taking meds. in the first place. Yeah sure, you'll be able to create again but still, you'll be off kilter, unable to connect correctly with society. Utterly depressed one mintue and wondering if it was all worth it, and so manic that eventually you fly into a rage of anger and breaks things, screaming in people's faces, maybe even going to so far as to hurt someone. So stay on your meds. TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR!!!! And see if you can either get on different meds, or have your levels changed, or if you've just gotten on the meds. be patient. It took me awhile but suddenly I got back the ability to laugh and feel, I write and create art, but I don't go to extremes anymore. I can Control myself now. And it's all because I kept working and it, trying over and over again, til I found the medication that worked for me. In the right dosage. And it's a disorder. It's a chemical imbalance that affects chemical neural synapses.
If you want to know the exact way that bipolar disorder works...I can tell you.
But you have to be open and honest with yourself about the fact that you need help all in all,
it's your call.
Okay,
Rant is finished
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Obama Stimulus Plan and The Lies Of Republicans
Hey There BLoggers!
Okay So again I heard lies from Republicans as they said that Obama's plan was just to spend, spend, spend. And then tonight I heard from Obama's mouth directly that my worst suspicions were true, not only were we in a state of recession but our jobless numbers, our state of economy had reached all time lows that were WORSE than the Great Depression!!! A time when the world had only been saved by a war, which is funny because part of our problem had been when we had GONE to war!! But Obama had confirmed once again that his spending part of the stimulus plan was only 1% of his stimulus plan, MEANING he had MORE ideas then just spending money to help to boost our economy. He had ideas about restructuring our very way of operating businesses in general, to ensure they would never need to "borrow" money from the government again. So this should put to rest the oppositiong of the Republican dissension, right?
NO! THey had a set up a community weekly meeting that so few planned to attend that they ahd to entice them with having JOE THE PLUMBER there as a speaker...I don't really think that's going to work anymore guys.
Oh And who is one of the guys that supports Obama's stimulus plan? REPUBLICAN CALIF. GOVERNOR, ARNOLD SCHEZNIGGER!!! Now what does that say to all you other stuffed up old farts? JUST GET OVER IT ALREADY- this bill is going to be passed!!!
Okay, I am done ranting.
Okay So again I heard lies from Republicans as they said that Obama's plan was just to spend, spend, spend. And then tonight I heard from Obama's mouth directly that my worst suspicions were true, not only were we in a state of recession but our jobless numbers, our state of economy had reached all time lows that were WORSE than the Great Depression!!! A time when the world had only been saved by a war, which is funny because part of our problem had been when we had GONE to war!! But Obama had confirmed once again that his spending part of the stimulus plan was only 1% of his stimulus plan, MEANING he had MORE ideas then just spending money to help to boost our economy. He had ideas about restructuring our very way of operating businesses in general, to ensure they would never need to "borrow" money from the government again. So this should put to rest the oppositiong of the Republican dissension, right?
NO! THey had a set up a community weekly meeting that so few planned to attend that they ahd to entice them with having JOE THE PLUMBER there as a speaker...I don't really think that's going to work anymore guys.
Oh And who is one of the guys that supports Obama's stimulus plan? REPUBLICAN CALIF. GOVERNOR, ARNOLD SCHEZNIGGER!!! Now what does that say to all you other stuffed up old farts? JUST GET OVER IT ALREADY- this bill is going to be passed!!!
Okay, I am done ranting.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
OH I AM SO DEPRESSED (no not really just being dramatic for effect)
Hello to all the nonexistant people who read my blog,
Well this is really more for me to have a reason to keep track of my feelings. But also when I started this I account I thought I would have all these random rants and raves to talk about like I used to with this one online journal I kept. Which by the way the sight will remain nameless but it's domain initials are RedBubble enough said. Anyways they these really stupid rules where if someone started shit with you, you couldn't say anything back, you could only report them to THE REALLY slow company in Australia that for some reason or another was always on vacation(Ahh what a country to live in they must have so many bullshit holidays you hardly have to work!) but they had this "play nice" policy where if you responded back to a hostile comment even in a private correspondance you'd just be in as much trouble. Well I got sick of waiting for their response time and I could never get through on their phone, so of course me not usually letting others take care of my fights I'd respond to their hateful remarks. I ended up getting kicked off and eventfully I got banned. But I found better sites where you can just actually block the people but these people are more supportive and less snotty about compliments and responding to your work. It's nice
Okay so why did I say I was so depressed.
Well My hometown is a small mountain in Arizona. No names I am not opening that can of worms up. But when I was a kid, for five years I went to every single Arizona Cardinals game with my grandparents. I was kind of known by the players because at every Ironman dinner instead of just running up screaming and pushing and interrupting the players conversation to get autographs like all the other kids did. I waited til they all left and I would stand outside their circle until they had a break in conversation and noticed me. THey thought I was such a well mannered kid that one player in particular, the Iron Man winner of that year, Aenas Williams, took me around to the whole team introducing me by name and got me personalized autographs and even got me pictures with the whole team. It was great. And every year on the day the team showed up to sign autographs I went back with my team photograph to get signatures. I remember five years later Aeneas Williams happened to be there that time and I wore this funky little necklace my mom bought me a boardwalk shop in California one time and I always wore it. He recognized me from when I was twelve by the necklace, EVEN REMEMBERED MY NAME!! TO this day I have his autographed pictures. He was always my favorite.
Well back to my point, As I am sure most of you, not all but most of you know, today was the Superbowl in which it was the Cardinals FIRST TIME GOING EVER!!!!
I was sure after the play where the Cardinals took it all the way to the end zone only to have the steelers to intercept and score a touchdown, I was sure after that that the Cardinals were going to lose. But then again they always were a second half team. And when it started to get going in the fourth quarter I thought Maybe, but I swear at one point I was having a heart attack!!
And then it happened...THE STEELERS TOOK IT BACK, after three fumbled attempts and near interceptions, seriously, AND THEN THE STEELERS SCORED AGAIN, and my heart just dropped to my stomach and I felt sick. All my prayers, all my hopes that again the underdog would win the superbowl were gone.
But I hope this near miss lights a fire under the Cardinals asses and they have a better season next year and maybe another shot at the superbowl again!
Hope is the one emotion that can keep us alive.
GO CARDINALS!!!!
lol
Well this is really more for me to have a reason to keep track of my feelings. But also when I started this I account I thought I would have all these random rants and raves to talk about like I used to with this one online journal I kept. Which by the way the sight will remain nameless but it's domain initials are RedBubble enough said. Anyways they these really stupid rules where if someone started shit with you, you couldn't say anything back, you could only report them to THE REALLY slow company in Australia that for some reason or another was always on vacation(Ahh what a country to live in they must have so many bullshit holidays you hardly have to work!) but they had this "play nice" policy where if you responded back to a hostile comment even in a private correspondance you'd just be in as much trouble. Well I got sick of waiting for their response time and I could never get through on their phone, so of course me not usually letting others take care of my fights I'd respond to their hateful remarks. I ended up getting kicked off and eventfully I got banned. But I found better sites where you can just actually block the people but these people are more supportive and less snotty about compliments and responding to your work. It's nice
Okay so why did I say I was so depressed.
Well My hometown is a small mountain in Arizona. No names I am not opening that can of worms up. But when I was a kid, for five years I went to every single Arizona Cardinals game with my grandparents. I was kind of known by the players because at every Ironman dinner instead of just running up screaming and pushing and interrupting the players conversation to get autographs like all the other kids did. I waited til they all left and I would stand outside their circle until they had a break in conversation and noticed me. THey thought I was such a well mannered kid that one player in particular, the Iron Man winner of that year, Aenas Williams, took me around to the whole team introducing me by name and got me personalized autographs and even got me pictures with the whole team. It was great. And every year on the day the team showed up to sign autographs I went back with my team photograph to get signatures. I remember five years later Aeneas Williams happened to be there that time and I wore this funky little necklace my mom bought me a boardwalk shop in California one time and I always wore it. He recognized me from when I was twelve by the necklace, EVEN REMEMBERED MY NAME!! TO this day I have his autographed pictures. He was always my favorite.
Well back to my point, As I am sure most of you, not all but most of you know, today was the Superbowl in which it was the Cardinals FIRST TIME GOING EVER!!!!
I was sure after the play where the Cardinals took it all the way to the end zone only to have the steelers to intercept and score a touchdown, I was sure after that that the Cardinals were going to lose. But then again they always were a second half team. And when it started to get going in the fourth quarter I thought Maybe, but I swear at one point I was having a heart attack!!
And then it happened...THE STEELERS TOOK IT BACK, after three fumbled attempts and near interceptions, seriously, AND THEN THE STEELERS SCORED AGAIN, and my heart just dropped to my stomach and I felt sick. All my prayers, all my hopes that again the underdog would win the superbowl were gone.
But I hope this near miss lights a fire under the Cardinals asses and they have a better season next year and maybe another shot at the superbowl again!
Hope is the one emotion that can keep us alive.
GO CARDINALS!!!!
lol
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