OH I AM SO DEPRESSED (no not really just being dramatic for effect)

Hello to all the nonexistant people who read my blog,
Well this is really more for me to have a reason to keep track of my feelings. But also when I started this I account I thought I would have all these random rants and raves to talk about like I used to with this one online journal I kept. Which by the way the sight will remain nameless but it's domain initials are RedBubble enough said. Anyways they these really stupid rules where if someone started shit with you, you couldn't say anything back, you could only report them to THE REALLY slow company in Australia that for some reason or another was always on vacation(Ahh what a country to live in they must have so many bullshit holidays you hardly have to work!) but they had this "play nice" policy where if you responded back to a hostile comment even in a private correspondance you'd just be in as much trouble. Well I got sick of waiting for their response time and I could never get through on their phone, so of course me not usually letting others take care of my fights I'd respond to their hateful remarks. I ended up getting kicked off and eventfully I got banned. But I found better sites where you can just actually block the people but these people are more supportive and less snotty about compliments and responding to your work. It's nice
Okay so why did I say I was so depressed.
Well My hometown is a small mountain in Arizona. No names I am not opening that can of worms up. But when I was a kid, for five years I went to every single Arizona Cardinals game with my grandparents. I was kind of known by the players because at every Ironman dinner instead of just running up screaming and pushing and interrupting the players conversation to get autographs like all the other kids did. I waited til they all left and I would stand outside their circle until they had a break in conversation and noticed me. THey thought I was such a well mannered kid that one player in particular, the Iron Man winner of that year, Aenas Williams, took me around to the whole team introducing me by name and got me personalized autographs and even got me pictures with the whole team. It was great. And every year on the day the team showed up to sign autographs I went back with my team photograph to get signatures. I remember five years later Aeneas Williams happened to be there that time and I wore this funky little necklace my mom bought me a boardwalk shop in California one time and I always wore it. He recognized me from when I was twelve by the necklace, EVEN REMEMBERED MY NAME!! TO this day I have his autographed pictures. He was always my favorite.
Well back to my point, As I am sure most of you, not all but most of you know, today was the Superbowl in which it was the Cardinals FIRST TIME GOING EVER!!!!
I was sure after the play where the Cardinals took it all the way to the end zone only to have the steelers to intercept and score a touchdown, I was sure after that that the Cardinals were going to lose. But then again they always were a second half team. And when it started to get going in the fourth quarter I thought Maybe, but I swear at one point I was having a heart attack!!
And then it happened...THE STEELERS TOOK IT BACK, after three fumbled attempts and near interceptions, seriously, AND THEN THE STEELERS SCORED AGAIN, and my heart just dropped to my stomach and I felt sick. All my prayers, all my hopes that again the underdog would win the superbowl were gone.
But I hope this near miss lights a fire under the Cardinals asses and they have a better season next year and maybe another shot at the superbowl again!
Hope is the one emotion that can keep us alive.
GO CARDINALS!!!!
lol